God First

"Jesus did not commit Himself unto them...for He knew what was in man." -John 2:24-25

Put God first in trust. Our Lord trusted no man; yet He was never suspicious, never bitter, never in despair about any man, because He put God first in trust; He trusted absolutely in what God's grace could do for any man. If I put my trust in human beings first, I will end in despairing of everyone; I will become bitter, because I have insisted on man being what no man ever can be-absolutely right. Never trust anything but the grace of God in yourself or in anyone else. God's trust is that He gives me Himself as a babe. God expects my personal life to be a "Bethlehem." Am I allowing my natural life to be slowly transfigured by the indwelling life of the Son of God? God's ultimate purpose is that His Son might be manifested in my mortal flesh.

"Never trust anything but the grace of God in yourself or in anyone else." To me, that's the most difficult to do. I am most definitely not allowing my life to be transfigured by the life of the Son of God. It's been so long since the last time I did QT's or even prayed. I remember there was this time last year where I went on a 6 months hiatus from church and ultimately God. I shunned religion and focused on believing solely in myself. I can do this, I can do everything, I don't need God to help me, the only person that'll help me is myself. At that time, I was never happy. I was always bitter and angry. Things never really went the way I wanted them to. I truly hated life and wished I wasn't part of this world. I guess this is what happens when you don't trust in God and you trust in your own understanding. It leads to hatred, pain, and bitterness. Thankfully, I started going back to church and although I'm still wavering in my faith, this is one step closer to that unwavering faith and trust in God. Hopefully, prayerfully, I will be able to trust God first and not man; slowly transfiguring by the life of the Son of God. One day with the help of God, I will fulfill His ultimate purpose that His Son might be "manifested in my mortal flesh."